Sunday, April 22, 2012

About Me!!!

My mother was told she couldn't have children (I don't know the reason) but in Oct 1967 I was born n shortly there after she was told I have a rare bone disorder called Osteogenesis Imperfecta (OI  4 short - http://www.oif.org) also known as Brittle Bones... I had A Lot of broken bones mainly before my teen years... Think about 50/60 +/- we lost count over the years... In my teen my breaks became fewer minus a bunch of broken fingers from getting caught in my manual wheelchairs spokes :-) I could walk short distances but relied on my wheelchair more which made life safer but helped me gain a lot of weight... My mother wanted me to have some religion in my life so she had me raised in my father's faith Catholic but during High School I got very upset at All religions because I just kept seeing/hearing them fight n argue about who was right n seeing/hearing them kill/hurt others over it, I was like 'Ba Hum Bug' about an n all religions to the point I started acting like a Vampire/Demon if the subject was brought up even 'Hissing' at the sight of any thing religious...

My last year if High School I starting writing a couple short stories of horror n than decided to start collecting Bibles even the Satanic Bible for research...
Well during this time I have to admit I lied, I cheated(not on GF's didn't have any), n I had a lot of sex w/ women... So I was a sinner big time, well in my eyes...
I felt I never broke the law just bent it...

One day I watched the movie(mini series) 'Jesus of Nazareth' n the scene where Jesus went to the house of the tax collector n his follower were shock n ask why... Jesus was like "The healthy need not a Doctor but the Sick Do, I am not here for You but here to call the Sinners"... This struck a cord of wonder in me... I was like oh so maybe I can be a follower of his too... Well I also recently joined a non-profit group called the Jaycees that believes in God and I also joined a company that put God 1st family 2nd n the company 3rd... I searched for a church, I went back to the Catholic church but didn't feel right there n even tried a friend's church (aka J.W.s) but really felt out of place there n felt no way, I looked at a few others n still nothing... Well one day I saw the TV ad for a Free 'Book of Mormon' I figured I'd get it to add to my collection of Bibles... After I got the book I decide to listen to the Missionaries and after about a month I joined the Church... I was very faith n devoted to them was even planning on doing mission myself but things happen to prevent that from ever happening and I almost left the church n my faith but prayed n stayed... Shortly after that I got Electrocuted on a ride at a festival up in Portland, Maine which shattered my left shoulder ball which need to be replaced well after that I became very inactive in the church n felt alone n not worthy of Jesus again... I even started falling back into old habits with sex with women... A number years later I got so heavy my stomach over hanged towards my knees... While being this heavy I had a number of compressed vertebrae from falls... I was over 360lbs with my doctor advice I had stomach surgery n lost about 160lbs... Losing the weight gave me a chance to do things I never did before but I hooked up with a woman that turned out to be bad for me...  I was hoping I could help her n even tried to get her into my church n I tried to become active again but things turn very depressing n I became a super heavy drinker... I tried to change myself n re-educate myself I went to Job Corps in summer 2005 and did very well there but once that was over I went home n feel back into drinking heavy... I drank so much in 2006 I barely remember 2006... I drank nearly everyday all day...
In late 2006 my mother's 2nd husband died n she needed another person to move in with her to be able to afford her rent so I did... I still drank not as much but still pretty bad...
In 12/2007 I got hit by a car while I was heading home in my wheelchair from buying more bear from the store to have for the day think I had just got 2 40oz. beers for myself... I was knocked out of my wheelchair and broke my left hip...  I recovered and was looking forward to the lawsuit money from being hit so I could re-enact the movie (w/ Nick Cage) 'Leaving Vegas' that ow depressed I was... I wanted to drink myself to death!!!
Well four months later I had a super bad stroke that the doctors didn't think I'd last the nite of the stroke, they told my mother to be prepared that I was most likely going to die... Some how I lived and then the doctors thought I'd be hospitalized for over a year because of how bad the damage was... About a month later I was home but bound to an Electric Wheelchair and major issues with right side of my body from the stroke... I lost fine motor control of my right hand(lost my writing hand, mouse/joystick control) n walking ability...

The strange/Good thing is I regained my will to live n even discovered a new love for being spiritual(loving God n Jesus)...
I decide to take the money from my lawsuit to move me, my mother n a friend to Florida to get away from Snow(being bound to the wheelchair n snow don't work well together) n my ex-girlfriend.. n start a new life down in Florida...

Well, once I moved down here I started to drink again but I got help from my new doctor to get on a med to aid me in remembering not to drink... I tried to rejoin the Mormon church but something just didn't feel right n seeing I always felt like an outsider in the Mormon church I started searching again for a place that felt right...

I was/am also seeing a counselor to talk about my issues/life... She told me about a local church call Bayside Community Church on 43rd St here in Bradenton... I went and finally felt I was in the right place... I went one more time to the Mormon church and told them I'm joining another church were I felt more right in... I didn't tell them I felt more of the spirit n love of God n Jesus there at Bayside... I just said I felt I need a change(which I did)... I'm very happy my counselor told me about Bayside Community Church(west camps) and that I joined it...

I really think my stroke was used to bring me closer to God n Jesus, I joke that Jesus used my stroke to give me a smack in the head to wisen up and do good... I even think he wants me to be spokes person of his love of Everyone...

I have a strong faith to share his(Jesus's) love for us all... Everyone from all faiths, all genders(even those some say are not worthy) n even the sinners(remember he once came here for them too)... We aren't here to judge them but here to love them n share him with them...

Remember Jesus says the two great commandments:
1) Honor God (if you do you honor all his commandments n him)
2) Honor your neighbor as you want them to honor you (if you honor your neighbor you wouldn't steal from them, steal from them, nor bare false witness against them n etc)... also if you want them to treat you good you would ate them for being different n etc...
Do Not Hate!!!
LOVE THEM ALL even those that Hate you!!!

So I figured I'd share this with you!!!

Sincerely'
Giovano 'Koala' Fusco Jr.




Monday, March 19, 2012

Oh Lord...

Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I have fallen...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I fallen into darkness...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I have hurt You...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I have hurt Many...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I have hurt Myself...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord can you forgive Me???
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I am so ashamed...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord Please Forgive Me...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord Deliver me from Evil...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord Deliver Me from MySelf...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord Deliver me into your Love...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord, Oh My God, I Love You...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I feel your warmth...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I see your light!!!
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord Guide to your Path...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I Thank You!!!
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I am Delivered into your Light...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I am Delivered into your Love...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I am Delivered into your Kingdom...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord I love You...
Oh Lord...
Oh My Lord Oh My God...
Oh Lord...
Amen, Amen, Amen...


...this was given to me by his guidance in a dream this morning 3-8-2012 as I a woke, Giovano Fusco Jr.




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