Trust Issues

Hello Everyone,

To those that don’t know me my name is Giovano aka Rev. Koala Yes I am an ordained minister but am an independent minister (a Christian minister but prefer term Jesusain, I prefer not using the term Christian because many people in the past n currently use Jesus n God to justify hurting n hate of others; I follow the Teachings of Jesus - Love)...

I have trust issues in many ways:

1 - history it is well known that history is basically recorded by the winners/conquers (example the people that came to north america n took the americas anyway from the people already living in america n the claiming the natives were evil killers)

2 - things written in books (including in the Holy Bible) books are written by humans who are imperfect n have biases (like based on the sexes n skin colors n etc...) so I don't totally trust books n now a days anyone can write n publish books n websites so I don't truly trust things written...

3 - Governments n their agencies (like the CDC, FDA n etc...) there have been times that they covered up n lied about stuff so again don't trust them totally...

4 - Politicians Way to many times they have lied/stole n etc so really can't trust any of them...

5 - People many lie to get what they want, hide true facts for many reasons so I only trust my Cool Friends/Family...

6 - Relationships - this has been a hard 1 for me since 2003 after a girlfriend ripped my heart apart I surrender my heart n soul to her but was cheated on, lied to n stole from me n played my head games on me so, I want to love someone again but find it hard to open my heart up again...

I find that there is only 1 thing I can trust is mathematics because 1+1=2 4x2=8 n etc math can be proven...

Oh some my point out faith can't really be proved but I do believe in God n Jesus my faith n Belief is based on faith n a personal vision n misc experiences that I Can Not prove Nor do I try to, I believe believing in any type of faith is a personal thing that we can share with each other but have no way or right to force onto others else...

I basically believe Do onto others as U would want them to do to U; if two people(adults) love great it is not my right or desire to intervene in how they love as long as they of legal age; people (in USA it is part of the founding laws of freedom of religion so be what ever faith U feel is right for U but U can't impose your belief onto others)...

A tricky thing in my briefs is adoptions because 1 it is killing of an unborn human but I feel I have No right to tell a woman what she does with her own body n nor do I have a right to tell her what she can't do wire her body; I feel that what she does is between her n Jesus because He will judge her later on...

Oh another thing I believe n Wish other would start understanding There Is Only One Race - Human Beings there is No Such thing as the White Race, Black Race n Etc... There is many different cultures n ethnicities n skin tones but we are All One Darn Race!!!

Ok thanks for reading!!!

Reverend Giovano 'Koala' Fusco Jr

12/9/2020

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Hello, Sorry I haven’t really written must of anything for a long time…

Jan. 17, 2020

Hello, Sorry  I haven’t really written must of anything for a long time… I have been having many issues n a lot of depression so been very challenging to motivate myself into doing much of anything was even a challenge to want to pray(I did n do pray but was a challenge) I never lost my faith in God or His Beloved Son n My Savior Jesus the Christ…

I want to start posting more n want suggestions on topics, chapters of the Bible to speak/write about but Very Important to verify I can’t prove God, Jesus n Holy Ghost/Spirit are real, I believe n know that they are real I respect your belief/right to not believe I am here to share/discuss what/how I believe without condemning others…

As American n being a human I believe we all have to find our own path n beliefs n I have no right to impose my beliefs on anyone, just share my beliefs n feelings…

There are many countries that have laws against different beliefs n sexual orientations but America says we have the right n freedom to believe what n how we desire or not to believe n I respect that n is also we I have friends I love/like that don’t have any belief, some friends n family that believe in other versions of Christianity n others that are Jewish, Muslim/Islamic, Buddhists, Pagan n etc n I respect/Love them all; I truly believe that is what Jesus wants me to do n by being that way I am able to share/show what Jesus is “Love”; to those that believe Jesus wants us to hate those that don’t believe in Him or His Father n we have to condemn those that we believe are committing a sin, in my opinion, have missed Jesus mission/love on Earth…

There are topics I won’t condone harm to: 

children, 

women, 

LGBT, 

animals(exception respectful use of animals for food), 

people of different skin tones (I say different skin tones because there is Only 1 Human Race), 

different faiths/beliefs

I don’t condone oppression of others; I just believe in respect, love n understanding of other does not mean I condone things/beliefs of others just know I don’t the right/ability to judge/condemn others (except I do find it very hard not to want to condemn those that do harm to list above)...

There is an important thing I need to share with everyone I do believe, respect the Holy Bible but I believe the Bible is Written by Man(n a sometimes women) n is inspired by God or  He ordered the Holy Ghost/Spirit to have humans write the Bible; by having humans(mainly men) write the Bible I truly believe the errors that have been found in translations proves humans writing the Bible can mess up the Bible here/there n human men have been known for ages n ages n ages of altering facts/things to suit their ways/wants/desires so I use the Bible as a guide book n Not read it with blinders on… I mainly hold myself strictly to the 10 commandments (God’s words written in Stone) n the Four Gospels (mainly the words of Jesus as He was teaching) the rest of the Bible I read/share/use with a grain of salt, No I know there are a number of people that are going to disagree n hate me on what I just wrote n that is their right to do, like I can not prove what I believe is true neither can they so, it is a waste of their time trying to make me believe I’m wrong n I have No Time for their ‘Spanish Inquisition’!!!

Now that I have put that out there hope we can find some ideas/suggestions for me to read/discuss…

 (remember no harm/hate/oppression/arguing/harassment/bullying/etc… such actions will be deleted n person blocked...

 just peaceful respectful discussion!!! Also Respect We all Need to Agree to Disagree on things/topics, No One is 100 right or Perfect)

Truly Reverend Giovano a.k.a. Rev. Koala

P.S. because on a faulty primary school education (a school for disabled children) that didn’t truly teach correctly I have a permanent learning disability than later in life I had a near-death stroke that bound me to an electric wheelchair n can no longer walk also added to my learning/reading/writing disability so be aware i know there are grammar errors which would be even worse without today’s tech...

Views on Discrimination…

View on Discrimination…

  I’m writing my view about Discrimination (this includes color of skin, sexes/gender, faiths, ability n smarts) because is an important issue that affects all in differently… I hate the word ‘racism’ there is Only One Human Race, people of purple, blue or orange skin are still one race…
  Throughout time humans have made slaves out of other people of different countries/cities/towns, faiths, sexes, skin colors n so/on… In know history the people held in slavery the longest n has been tortured n killed more than any humans in known history, that people are the Jewish people… The Christians were also slaves n used in Romans games, most notably in arenas feed/chased/killed by lions… Back note to the Jewish people they were locked up n tortured by Christians because the Jewish people refused to convert to Christianity; than Hitler n his Nazi party also captured, tortured, killed (by the masses) the Jewish people…
Yes African people were slaves for many many many years pre-1900 (in America); but remember not every African was captured by the evil white man, they were also captured n traded by other African tribes… Yes Black on Black crime was going on for a long long long time… I am not trying to lighten the crimes/evilness of the white humans just trying to remind everyone that it isn’t just one people's fault…
  Are all Germans evil/guilty for what happened in Germany (1940’s) No!!! Are all Egyptian people guilty for the slavery of the Jews, No!!! Are all Romans also guilty for suppressing/torturing Jews n Christians??? No!!! Are All White people guilty for slavery pre-1900’s??? Again No!!! Ok, yes I am not an history buff but I did pay attention in school n continued to learn about history here/there…
  Oh wait I know what U are about to say the white people treated those of color like scum, dogs n still there are many that hate those of color those people are the true scum…
  I have noticed that more that we get closer to being united the more the African people put a Neon sign out separating us again… When the evil White power people find a spark to rally around everyone gets super upset (rightly so) but when Black people do the same thing we are told we can’t say anything…
  WE Need to stop hiding behind our skin color or using our skin color as a shield or as a sword!!! We Are One Human Race n Until We Start Acting as One People We Can’t Stop Racism!!!
 Side note: Not All White/Black people are bad, it be like my fellow disabled people blaming all U abled bodied people for putting people like us in torturing hospitals/institutions(yes in the past but was going on up till the 1960’s n still going on in other countries) or just abandoning our people… We rebelled/protested for our equal right/access but access is still not equal everywhere n nor can it be sadly… example: not cost effective for me, a guy in an electric wheelchair to go mountain climbing or nature camping...

Other discrimination has been going on for ages; like:
  Women - not allowed to vote n are treated like a lesser person n there are many places around the world they are still not allowed to vote or stand/walk by a man (even their sons have walk in front of them)... American woman have had to fight for the right to vote n are still struggling to being treated as equals, this is Not right!!! Women are reason we are all here they are the Mothers of the Human race who deserve respect!!!
  Faith - There are many different faiths/non-faiths (yes I am a believer of God n His Son - Jesus) but I believe everyone has a right to believe/not-believe in their path some faiths have been around much much longer then Christianity... These faiths are believed by more people then there are Christians… As a Christian I believe we are to share the teachings of Jesus to everyone BUT Not to Beat others over the head with Jesus’ teaching; He wanted us the share His Love/Teachings with everyone NOT Hurt/Shun/Kill Those that Refuse His Love/Teaching!!!
Faiths are not perfect many of them have their problems n bad parts in them… Christians Are Not Perfect!!! Christians have killed many While Claiming to doing so in Jesus’ name (In my opinion is a great evil) oh that was in the past… Oh really??? People that blew a government building back in the 1990’s; there are people that have killed doctors n blew up clinics because of stuff they do that the law say is legal… There are Christians (n other faiths) that hurt/kill lesbian/gay/bi-sexual/transgendered in the name of their faith, who the hell made them judge??? Can’t talk for other faiths but DAMIT Christians We Are Not To Judge, Judging what a person does in their life Is Jesus Job n ONLY His!!!

Key Note: GOD wrote 10 Commandant HimSelf in Stone given to Moses other stuff in the Bible was given by those God chose to give us more teachings… Oh yeah so God doesn’t like LGBT says the Bible BUT HE Hates Killing, Cheating on your Spouse, Lying, Stealing n etc He Wrote in Stone in how many of His People Kill, Lie, Cheat n Steal Everyday??? Where is the Outrage of those Sins n those sinful people?!?!? Think Have U or Someone U know Cheated on a spouse, lied, stole or even killed(hurt others)???
As stated in the Bible “He without Sin Cast the First Stone” ~ Jesus (I might not have that exactly as written but there are so many version of the Bible I think I have it close enough) So Stop hating LGBT We are all God’s people n His will be done by Him!!!

Again I am Not perfect or A Very Smart Person but I am a person concerned about Us all n really wish we can Love each other as Jesus wants us to do!!!

                Sincerely Reverend Giovano “Koala” Fusco

Hello Everyone,Hope U are all doing well/better...

Hello Everyone,Hope U are all doing well/better...

I have been thinking about my faith n the faiths/beliefs of my friends... I have many friends that don't believe in God, Jesus, Holy Ghost/Spirit n also have friends that believe in other types of faiths(Some that only believe is God n not Jesus, Allah, multiple Gods or believe in nature/the force type of thing)... I respect my friends beliefs n would not but them down for their beliefs (because in my faith I am told not to judge others)... I can be an example of my faith by being the best as I can, while not judging/condemning others...

When an atheist asks me why I believe what I do; I say it was a very personal event that locked my belief in... I also think it doesn't hurt to have the belief I have; 1) my belief s a good guide in living my life 2) having my belief I will have an after life when I pass away...

Now shouldn't everyone just saying 'ok I believe' but just saying U believe is not going to cut it U have to truly believe n that can not happen by just saying it... Believing as I do can come to others over time but really need a personal experience that gives U the faith... I feel Nothing I say can(or should) make others switch their beliefs but hopefully by being a good example of my faith it will give others an interest in checking out my beliefs... Trying to convince others to believe the same is ok but not by forcing them into believing the same many Christians in the past (n still do to this day) have killed n hurt non believers which I truly believe Jesus wouldn't want to be done...

Jesus taught not to judge others n to love others as He Loves Us; if we love others we will share our beliefs n love with them n respect them for their beliefs(or lack of belief)...

I love my friends(even those that don't believe as I do n yes I want them to believe as I do but I feel the best thing I can do is to be the best example I can be in believing what I believe... I also believe when I pass away I will put a good word in for my friends to give them another chance to believe as I do.... If I am wrong in my faith no harm will have been done by my believing because I tried to live a good life n if I am wrong in my faith when I die that will be it(no afterlife) so I will not have lost anything for believing as I do..........Believing as I do i will have an afterlife with a new healthy body/life...

Ok time for me to stop this blog entry because my train of thinking is fading I feel like I want to write more but my mind is drawing blank so HUGs to U all, I love U all for being U!!1 HUGs love Rev. Koala(Giovano) ❤✌🙏🖖🤝💗💝💜🐨

I try to focus on God's word written in stone n Jesus' teaching/sayings...

Sorry I don't write much, I need to be inspired to write;

I focus on two areas of the Bible 1st the Words Written in Stone By God - The Ten Commandments n the Words/Teaching(usually in red in many Bibles) of Jesus... Well what about the rest of the Bible??? I read n learn from the rest with a grain of salt (maybe a whole salt shaker) (Why???) which translation is closer to who the Bible was Written??? How Many Times has is been translated to current English??? How Many Mistakes in Translations have been mistakenly added into the Bible??? How Many Things Been Changed in These Translations because of Language Differences??? How Many Things Changed Because Someone Felt the Wording Was Wrong???

Now We have many many many versions of the Bible(just in English Alone) we have the NKJV, KJAV, NIV, ASV, ESV n many more all these version are based off of the KJV which came(somewhat) from the Catholic Bible; if we look at a Catholic Bible(the Church that has had the Christian Bible the Longest) it has Books by other men of the Bible' why doesn't the KJV have those books??? KJV came from the King James of England who wanted a Bible the Nobles (maybe also common men) to read n is Based on the Catholic version of the Bible SO Why are there Books missing n versus missing n even added(not seen in Catholic version)??? So, there is why I take the rest of the Bible with a grain of salt Too Many Errors, Human/Men's Hands have messed with it; like the saying 'if it isn't broken don't mess with it//fix it' human men are know for trying to fix stuff only to make it more messed up, or break it, or over do it... Granted Great to have the Translations in English n other languages, seeing Catholic leadership only wanted their priest to know how to read the Bible so they had control over what people knew of the Bible but Now Men/Women have tried to correct what they saw as errors in translation or tried to make it an easier read n again 'if it isn't broken...' !!!

Ok, there are scriptures that Christians have slowly skipped over, ignore, or make excuses for not doing n they have been doing this for a long long long time, Christians eat shell fish a no no in the Bible no problem we will say Jesus fulfilled Moses laws so we can eat shellfish n destroy that law of Moses but Jesus said "Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets; I am not come to destroy, but to fulfill." Matthew 5:17 KJV maybe I am misspoken on that I have a few pics others have shared that makes my point that Christians Obey What They Like n Ignore What They Don't Like or Think is Outdated;

This I Why I Focus on the Words of God (written in stone) n His Son Jesus Teaching/Sayings(sometimes in Red Letter in some Bibles) n use rest of Bible as a Guide I feel that the Bible has much Good in it n I am ever learning from it but I Know Men Have Messed With It TOOOO Much to be 100% True, it has too many dirty grains of salt in it from men's hands!!!

~Rev. Giovano 'Koala' Fusco

Thinking:

Thinking:

When depression sets in you can feel hopeless n lost like lost in the vastness of space; when you see something turn all towards it like they do astronomy the longer they focus on an area the more things they find, so focus on that glimmer/hope n the longer you focus on it the clearer n brighter it becomes!!! 

I know that I have many friends that don't believe in God or an afterlife n I don't condemn them like some of others that believe in God/Afterlife;

I think they are very brave people, no not because like some believe they will burn in a hell, No I believe they are brave to go through life everyday with the many challenges n the knowledge they at any point life can end n that is it end of story, have to be strong to go out anywhere, my friends that don't have a faith in an afterlife but still go out n live are truly strong n brave, Big HUGs!!! n Thanks for Being My Friends!!!

Now almost all you know I believe in God, Jesus n the Holy Ghost/Spirit when I was in my deepest depression as a depressed drunk before my stroke I wanted to die in a way I wanted everything over I wanted nothingness turnoff the power/lights...

When I awoke after my stroke had new love of life but also a deep love of Jesus, God n the Holy Ghost/Spirit... For awhile had a fear of things falling on me not killing me but causing more limitations of my mobility but talking with a counselor she help me with that I mention it because my mobility is limited but I manage; I do not fear death I have a strong faith of an afterlife granted don't to give up on life even with my struggles...

My faith n belief of my faith that isn't something I can convince anyone of or even want to try to convince anyone of I can only live my life n be a good example of what my faith means to me granted I not perfect at it all the time but I do my best at living my faith!!!

God is 1st n I try to Love/Respect Him, I try to be Like His Son as I can, yes I focus on how I believe Jesus would want me to Live, Love others/myself n do what I can to do to help others even before me... This reminds I pay a tithe 1st Sunday of each month but if out n about I see someone that is down/out needing/wanting some change I will n have given them my last dollar or change some I have used my card to buy them snacks or soda in someways prefer getting them easy food they don't need to keep cold or cooked easy for them to carry then giving them change when I feel will be used for other desires... There are some I want to take off the street n bring them home to help up but as former drunk that went out on streets of Portland, Maine begging for change to help me buy a 40oz beer I know you can't help someone up till they hit bottom n want help up it saddening but just being a respectful of those that are down n not judgmental of them n try to build a relationship with some so when they are ready they know that there is someone willing to help them... I have an insight that many don't because of being a former drunk beggar n the fellow drunks I hanged with n girlfriends n their friends that were into drugs I know many of the lies/tricks addicts play on people to scam money for booze n drugs; I befriend these people but am very guarded around them as well...

Ok, got little side tracked:

Depression can hit the best of us n sometime life adds struggles that pile up negative stuff n depression gets us lost in the darkness of space making us feel hopeless n worthless n that is a hard thing to break free of; we need to keep looking for a glimmer then focus on that glimmer so it becomes more in focus n with time gets brighter like hope the more hope you focus on n ignore the hopelessness feeling the Hope can over shadow the negative... Granted it isn't easy I have fell into the darkness countless times but I keep looking for that glimmer n my faith is my compass to that compass!!!

I follow my faith in a real basic simple way 1st I believe in a God, His Son Jesus, The Holy Ghost/Spirit then 2nd I follow/believe in the 10 Commandments the Thirdly The Red Word in many Bible the Red Words are Jesus Talking/Teachings... That is my base of my faith n my ministry, I read the Bible but because of it being edited/handled by man know it is not prefect, I believe the Bible is a good book to live our lives with but should be used as a personal guide to my/your lives but not a book to tell others how to live their lives!!!

We can talk n share insights from the Bible never to bash each other's beliefs...

Rev. Giovano 'Koala' Fusco

HUGs!!!

WOW WOW was having some weird dreams...

WOW WOW was having some weird dreams,
started with me having a big home then my in-law grandparents visiting then my in-law grandmothers having me judging their cooking of HamHocks ok dream is wracked because 1 have no in-laws, not even married {yet} n Never had HamHocks no idea what hamhocks are) then dream kept changing size of my home from super big to a good size one for a family of 5kids me n wife n a nanny with mother apartment for mom with 2exxtra rooms 1 for her guests n 1 for live in butler/personal-aid n a house next door for staff husband-handyman wife-housekeeper n their kids n a mobile home for Mark; then dream took a roll down memory lane to a love I miss n still worry about the dream kept focusing on the good times(even remembering feeling/touches/intimacy) I had with Kristin n then dream took me to deep deep deep sadness at 1st felt like I lost something super dear to me n because dream was focusing on Kristin my mind started feeling she was gone(died) I started crying in my dreams then I even woke up n I was crying really n really balling my eyes out n nose got stuffedup I cried n cried my mouth was choked-up last time I cried this hard was when I got info that I might lose my left arm in time because of the way doctor did the implant n when it wears out... The crying went on for a long time soaking my pillow then I asked why, when, help me: 
Why was I born with brittle bones(6month old till teens years over 60 broken bones n bones are still a concern now, 
Why I did I get a learning troubles/disability making school hard n even collage a failure, 
Why I have relationship issues(as a kids I even gave kids near me money to play with me)then from years 18-34 I paid women for sex, I didn't socialize in high school like others was picked up right after school by handicapped bus, never had a high school girlfriend, never went to events like concerts (well went to 1 because I won tickets but never could afford to buy any) stayed home alot playing on my computers; didn't feel a real connection to a woman till Kristin, holding her her holding me me brushing her hair us going down the street holding hands us watching TV/Movies her leaning on me or her head in my lap me holding her hand while we watched TV so when things started going wrong or my illusion was coming apart I started drinking n drinking n drinking 5th of whiskey a day suitcases of beer a day n then even bagging for money on the street to get more money for 40oz beers; 
I don't ask why I had a stroke I know why my depression, my drinking like a fish, my smoking of cigars, me not taking my blood pressure meds n me wanting to die, I was really begging to die n nearly did with the stroke the stroke was a turning point in my life *shall add more after why, when help me...
When am I to be in Love again???
When Will I Have a Girl to Truly Love Me???
When will I have a family???
Help Me to Be Happy!!!
Yes am happy with my friends I have that care about me but but well how many of you know me really know me, knowing my fav color, TV shows, movies n etc are easy guess my fault I am not very open with myself to others (yes I share alot but my heart is locked up guess since Kristin she Hurt it bad as picture shows-the tattoo a ripped aparted heart held together with barbed wire) feeling have always been a hard thing for me to share; a couple I know n really really care about have been a dare thing to me the husband joking n budding with me when he n I are together n the Wife the HUGs She Gives Me are so great, Phil n Pam give me a taste of care/love of what I am crying for, craving n deserve!!!
Help Me God, Jesus, Holy Ghost/Spirit, Universe, Karma LIFE to Have Love, a Wife/my own family), a Better Life I have been on disability income all my life(it sux), I have mouth empty of teeth(well a few broken ones still in there), I am always struggling with Medicaid to get meds n medical equipment, doctor wants me n I do to eat better n healthier but on my income even with food stamps n my month I can't afford the healthier foods or eat things like apples, peaches I eat softer foods that are unhealthy n many are unhealthy like M&Ms String cheese etc but hey they are called comfort foods for a reason they give people like me some comfort n since I don't have any whole teeth, no real income no girlfriend/wife n I gave up booze, cigars what little comfort I get from candy/junk food that is easier to eat do eat but even eating those is full of sadness because I know it is not healthy for me but What am I to do??? I Pray, Wish n Hope for a change in my life!!!

Now Times Like this morning the depression IS So Great n My Tears still dry on my face n when Life Doesn't Seem Worth Struggling With BUT
But HOPE, No Matter if that Hope is a grain of sand surrounded by Marbles of Sadness n Depression that grain of sand can stop a mables, a little super small size amount of Hope can be that Window to Something Wonderful n if I(we) ignore it(or throw it away) I would never know what that grain of sand(window) has for me(us) n that Keep Me Hoping, Wishing n PRAYing for my future life n Better Life a Happier Life n For Being Loved/in Love!!!

ok brain is drawing close to empty so HUGs n yes I didn't forget the ' * ' I typed it is below...

Good Morning, pray/hope you are doing well/better today as for me body ok minor aches n sadness slowly going away...

HUGs to You All!!!

* to continue my stroke was a blessing it re-a-woke me to Life, it gave a better outlook at things in my life having brittle bones I wasn't abused physically(mom had a rough childhood so she could have become an abuser if I didn't have brittle bone - got a few warm butts in my young years but spanking is sometimes needed) also met many other disabled kids that had worst disabilities then I had n they loved life n helped me after stroke to deal with my current limitations, even my relationship with Kristin even as bad as it was showed me what I was missing in Life(LOVE) yes it had great moments n I hope/pray I find a woman to truly love n she loves me... Being hit by a car 4 months before my stroke was a good thing even if I had to have a metal rod put in my hip I knew I would get $$$ for being hit n before stroke planning on going to Vegas to drinking myself to death like movie 'Leaving Vegas' but my stroke stopped me n renewed my life, gave me a new set of morals, a more caring heart from always what could I get next to wanting to help n care for other also to me becoming a Reverend to Share the HUGE LOVE I Feel from Jesus that I want n Need to share that Love with others No Matter Color(I don't say race We are All Humans 1 race), Sex, Sexual Orientation, Faiths/Religions n those of No Faiths I Have the Feeling/Calling Not to Convert, Change Beliefs or Condemn/Judge Others But Am Called To Show Them They Are All Loved n Are Wonderful!!! 

Rev. Giovano - Rev. Koala